Im not sure how to start, Well this girl ive known since they 8th grade ive known her up to now. At first we were very close, when she met me, we hit it off right away, i was in her house every saturday she would call me exacly as i got home lol we would talk for hours until one of our phones would die or until her dad would unplug it and tell her to go to sleep. We would watch, talk about anime and other stuff. We had great times together.
When we entered highschool things just started to change like with everyone obcource, we met friends we hanged out and i got jealous but we over came that .
In certain times she would act distant. When she started getting boyfriends she would always put them first even though she said friendship always came first, as time went by she started acting like that more and more acting like that with every boyfriend, calling me when she just needed advice, asking me about why he would act this way, or about personal questions.
We use to talk online for hours, now she just leaves me there for hours and not tell me if she left or went to do something or just sign off with out saying good bye. On myspace even though i try or shoudnt make it a big deal, she didnt put me on her top 8, and she put people she barely talks to on it.
Now we are in college Sometimes ive tried to talk to her on messanger about how i feel and about how she acts but she just says shes busy and she has to go, ive tried to tell her in person but she just changes the subject and thinks there is nothing wrong. Everytime i want to hang out with her i always have to do it on her schedule and never mine, shes never come over to my house, she says she is busy when she docent even work.
I dont know what to do, when i needed her the most she wasent there, people say i should stop talking to her but i cant, not that i cant i wont i would miss her.I wish i could tell her how much she hurts my feelings but i dont, I always want to make her happy and dont want to upset her and have her stop talking to me. If she docent want to be my friend atleast she would tell me and not have me feel like this. I know it may sound pathetic, but please over look that and give me some advice.
I got some advice to put her at the end of myspace and i did since she didnt put me on her top 8 and i just did they same thing, when i went back to check she had deleted me, i went to Gaiaonline and she deleted me there to, when i saw this i burst in to tears right now iys tearing me apart.
Thank You